On a sunny Wednesday evening early in October, curiosity got the better of me and I decided to take a look at the NaNoWriMo website. I had no intention of signing up because I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing enough to write a story, any story.
You see, life had knocked me down very, very hard. My beloved husband, friend, confidante, life partner, lover, and pick-me-upper is suffering from the mighty C. No, I can’t even type the name but I can say it. Weird, right?
Since that fateful diagnosis, I’ve been unable to write a single word. But I tried to hang in there and continued doing research on novel ideas that popped up. This distressed and depressed me greatly. But I had no time to lament, I had to be strong for my husband and help him through these rough, turbulent waters. Not to mention, I have two loving, mood-lifting dogs, Yuki and Kaia that I had to also give my attention to. On top of all this, I still have to work a full time job. So yes, I am being pulled in all different directions but the one thing that remains constant is my determination to not let any of this get me down. Prayer is and continues to be my salvation.
Back to NaNoWriMo. I descended on the website like a vulture. I was adamant. I wanted to write something, anything really, really bad. After perusing the site for about half an hour, a germ of an idea came to me after reading the words “magic” and “shaper”. Aww snap! I’ve got to run with this, it might be my only chance. And before I knew what I was doing, I took the plunge and signed up for NaNoWriMo 2012. Then naturally, I panicked. The internal dialogue would leave a sane person mad. What was I thinking? I can’t do this now with all that’s going on! But why not do it now? Are you crazy! Don’t you see that you’re needed elsewhere? Well it might just be the only way I can force myself to write something, anything. You’re gonna regret this. No, no I won’t. I’ll have words on paper that I can mold into something worthwhile. I can’t mold an empty paper now can I? Tsk, Tsk, Tsk. All right. I get it. Stop with the dramatics already. I’m doing this and that’s that!
Needless to say, the ideas kept coming and after getting some help from fellow NaNos with my initial plot, I can say that I’m as ready as I’ll ever be. I’m still dealing with life but I’m empowered to keep trying. I hope this will be the springboard to my continuous idea spring well. After all, what good are my two Master’s Degrees in Creative Writing if I don’t use them? My NaNo handle is ChelleAng93, wish me luck.